Drowning

How can you describe the feeling
When it consumes you in ways even you don’t understand
All you know is the heavy all-encompassing weight
Dragging you down to depths unheard of
Trapping you; not letting you break free
It feels like drowning, over and over again
But you don’t die instead you live simply to drown again

It is a wonder how you can breathe, let alone function
A smile plastered to your face
When inside you are screaming
You cannot shrug it off
It is following you, becoming a part of you
Like a shadow to your existence

You have tried to put a name to it
Hoping that by putting it in a box, you will be able to conquer it
Is it fear?
Is it love?
But in the end, you reluctantly accept the reality
How can you conquer this feeling
When it consumes you in ways even you don’t understand

So you drown again